The Tension of Opposites

Pulled by invisible ropes to both directions at the same time.
Almost torn asunder by the guilt and emotions that ache with its acidity.
Slowly, but surely splitting my being into two,
With no rational conclusion in sight but the fact that I am degenerating into nothingness.
To what end? One of bland survival, not living.
Many dreams dreamt, none achieved.
"Show me the way, lead me to the right path"
No answer is forthcoming,
Because none is willing to take responsibility for me,
And that includes me.