Annoyance

I shouldn't care what you think.
Cos you're are judging me based on your standards, and you do not realise that you are doing the same EXACT things that I am.
On your high seat you think you are right.
You could be, but unfortunately you don't see that your own actions mirror mine. Sometimes your actions are beyond mine.

Why is it that when you act that way, you're just being a normal friend, but when I do the same thing, I am waaaaaayyyy out of line?

Why is it that you are only happy, and would only wish that I am happy, when you are better than me in ALL aspects? And when you think that I am ahead of you in any way I must be doing something wrong/unacceptable?

Must you be better than me ALL the time? in ALL ways?

Can't you just accept me as I am and do what good friends should?

Why aren't there any true friends in this world?

I am trying my best. Trying to live my life in ways that would not harm others, in ways that would not be talked about by others. I AM TRYING. Believe me, I DO NOT deliberately do what you think I do.

But I fail. A lot of the time. Because I am human, and I make mistakes all the time. I try desperately hard to live in a way that would not be judged negatively by others, and I try not to judge others. I try not to judge you, because who am I to judge wat's right and what's wrong?

But I guess you just can't do the same for me.